I fucking hate it when it's always like this. The fact that things aren't the way it is and you're so fucking lost. It's just... just that i feel things have been happening a lot lately.

Sonnie's dad had a relapse. And I fucking feel pathetic for not knowing it earlier. The other day i asked.. uncle was fine.. Sonnie, i've no idea how you are feeling now cause... my mom doesn't have a relapse. But seriously. PLEASE PLEASE do call me if you really need someone to talk to.


I'm really feeling uptight inside now. Ellie's gone, Reinnie's gone... Lai is still so far away.So many of you guys aren't here. I... really miss you guys bad. So much so I'm on the verge of crying.Reinnie... i really need you back, there's no one i can go crying too now.I...need to talk to someone..maybe to my HDD. OTL.

I fucking feel so pathetic useless now. Not even sure why I'm feeling this bad. I feel so extremely lost.So lost.　Ｉ don't know if i can hold my tears tml.

説召してよ、君の「あの少女」　わ誰。
僕わね、どするて、全全わかない。
何で心がどきどきする。
何で心が痛いて。助けテ　かみ様。
全部...終わりですか？